Through it all, my eyes are on You
Yesterday is a heartbroken day for both my wife Alex and me. When I got home at night, Alex was crying and couldn’t control her emotions. After I looked at the message on her phone, I was suddenly very depressed as well.
The message is from our puppy breeder. We ordered an Australia Blue Heeler from her two months ago when the dog mother was still pregnant. And after the mother gave birth to seven puppies, we went to pick our puppy two weeks ago. Together we found our favorite one, and named him Gaby. But since Gaby couldn’t leave his mother yet, we can’t take him right away and we need to wait for two more weeks. This coming Saturday, which is 10/7/2016, is the date we are going to take him home and invite him into our family.
We have already bought various dog food and toys for our coming friend, but the message from the breeder broke our sweet dream. She said that Gaby passed away on Sunday, and she is still investigating the cause, because there weren’t any obvious signs before Gaby passed away.
Alex can’t stop crying sitting by my side, and I feel the same deep sorrow in my heart. I begin a conversation in my mind. -Why does this happen? -Well, since this has already happened, it means that God allows this to happen. -Why? -We don’t know the reason yet at this point, but we are sure of one thing: God loves us, and he has a plan for us, and his plan is best for us. We just can’t see it right now. – OK, Lord, I trust in you. I believe you have your plan and authority. You have your reasons for this to happen, and your authority can’t be questioned. But I just ask you that please tell us the reasons, please reveal your intentions to us. Because we just don’t have the wisdom to see it through by ourselves. Lord, please comfort Alex and me, please wipe out our tears. We put our faith in you. Thank you, Lord.
Then I express my thoughts to Alex and we pray together, and she felt much better. Together we sing out one of our favorite songs “It is well”: Let go my soul and trust in him, the waves and wind still know His name… Through it all, through is all, my eyes are on you. And it is well with me…
Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. – 1 Chronicles 16:34