I remember when I was a high school student, my relationship with my family was not very good, because they often work outside. They usually work until 8:00 pm. I was not excited about my dinner because I only have dinner alone at the table. They never spend time communicating with me and understanding my thoughts. They just want to know whether my grades are good and what kind of college I could attend. Therefore, I don’t want to be their ideal son who studies hard and make a lot of money in the future. I don’t want to make money only just to maintain my life, and then repeat the same procedures day after day. I felt that my parents had arranged my future for me, so I don’t have to make a decision.
I used to be a quiet person. I don’t like talking too much but I like to precipitate my thoughts alone at night. I never like to bother others or tell me about things because I always think that no one wants to know me. My life was nothing related to any people just as I was indifferent to other people. I knew that I am lonely, but I get used to it. I didn’t think that was a problem at the time because there were so many lonely people in the world. I was just one of them no one wants to care.
At that time, I began to think about the meaning of life. I even asked my classmates, what do you think is the meaning of life? The students replied: “I don’t know, I didn’t think about it.” Then I ran to ask the teacher: “Why do you think I need to learn?” “She said: “Of course it is for you to find a good job in the future. But these are not the answers that satisfy me. The question about the meaning of life has been impossibly solved in my heart.
Until I came to the United States, there was a couple of Taiwanese living in Tampa, Florida. They loved the students very much. Even if they had to work every day, they would open their homes on Fridays and weekends in order to meet the students. We always get together, have dinner and discuss the content of the gospel. Importantly, they were willing to spend their own salary to prepare food for the students. They served the students for more than a decade. Through bible discussions, I began to realize that nothing in the world was created randomly or by chance. God created everything meaningful and organized . I gradually changed from an atheist to theist. Then, I believed that there is a creator who must introduce himself or we cannot know him.
Roman1:20 “For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.” I have never heard of the truth before, and the Bible can be perfectly explained with a few simple words. For examples, the explanation of love and the explanation of faith. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hope, always perseveres.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
No one has ever been able to explain these things completely, but the Bible is very clear. I thank God for letting me understand that the meaning of life is to glorify God and to govern the kingdom of God. I thank God for loving us so much and giving us a glorified identity. After becoming a Christian, I began to care about the people around me and wanted to know more about their situation, because there must be many people who want to be cared for just like the old me, but they are not noticed. Thanks to the Lord for leading me step by step and growing my spirit in Christ Jesus.