There were many important things happened in my life in January and February. I was baptized on January 21st. I believe God taught me a big lesson after I got baptized. I remember I prayed for God that I want to experience more His love. I want to experience more about Him because I know that He loved me in my mind but I didn’t feel about it, so I kept asking God to let me experience more.
I was preparing for my GMAT exam so that I can apply to graduate schools. I planned to take the GMAT on Jan 18th. I want to focus on the exam so I asked my boss if I can take a whole week off from Monday to Friday before the exam. My boss Mr. Taylor is so nice to me, he said yes that I can take a week off. After I finished my exam, I went back to work. Mr. Taylor asked me to turn in my time sheet, so he can give me the paycheck. I usually work 20 hours/week, 40 hours for 2 weeks. I wrote 20 hours for 2 weeks since I took a whole week off. I got my paycheck and went back to home. I was shocked when I saw my paycheck. Mr. Taylor paid me 40 hours as usual! I felt I didn’t deserve that because I didn’t work, so how can I get the money. I talked with Mr. Taylor about the paycheck. He said he knew I was in the educational progress, he wants to support me. I was so touched by his heart and his generosity. However, I still feel I don’t deserve that money. I felt pressure.
I shared my feeling and thoughts with some of my friends. I remember one of my friends said if you can’t even receive the love from your boss, how can you receive the bigger love from God? God’s love is much bigger and stronger than people can do. I was shocked by her words. I think her words over and over again. I feel that maybe God wants to stretch my heart to start receiving from Him freely because I kept asking Him to show me His love. God is always showing me how He loves me, but my heart was just too small to receive His big love, so He used my boss to widen my heart. God widened my heart so that I can experience more from Him. I am so excited when I think in this way. I am so grateful for what God did through my boss.
In addition, the kindness from my boss made me think more. It is too good to be true! He did such sweet things for me just an intern. I want to do good things for others without getting from others, but sometimes I will make selfish choices when others don’t meet my expectations. But my boss just simply showed his kindness for me and didn’t expect me to do anything for him. I felt my hear was scratched again. I knew what is good in the Bible, but it is very hard to really do it. My boss showed me we can do it in the real life and it is powerful for others to see. Thus, I want to love others freely because God loves us first.