August was officially my first month of ISEED program in IFI and I experienced a lot.

Before being accepted by this program, I felt that live was so confused and found nothing ever interested me or they only interested me a short amount of time. Therefore, I want to know more about heavenly father, his characters, and his plan for me before I stepping into another stage of my life. Many times I feel that I am still a spiritual baby, though I am not a young believer. I give this program high expectations and I know God will not let me down. 🙂

Many things happened in August and I really saw God always works in his way but not I expected. At the beginning of August, my new apartment lease had some problem which led to my “homeless” status for two weeks, while the two welcome events happened at the same time. By God’s grace I could live in a host family during that time, however, I am not satisfied. I prayed a lot for that situation and sometimes questioned God “Aren’t you love me?” “I cannot understand your plan for me?” Especially in such a busy season and risk to have no where to stay. God keep silence for a while but finally answered my prayer. I moved in my dream apartment and events also comes really successful. I appreciated God but still get confused why He gave me such a experience. After a while, I am able to talk to a friend and what she said really changed my way of seeing. She said, “If you don’t have that two weeks living with your host family and another Iseeder, you will not have involved with the events so much and you will not experience how much God loves you by sending people around.” I feel it is truly God talked to me. It was to me to testify but not God. He tried to testify if I can still love Him when he performs a way that looks bad to me. I lost in the first round, but I will catch up.

Also, it was amazing when I saw God’s work even in unbeliever’s heart. I met a new student at the welcome picnic who was discouraged by her previous church’s false teaching in her home country. She went to a church continuously for half a year till they asked if she want to following Jesus, she quited because she feel there was something wrong in it.  “I tell you this so no one may deceive you by fine-sounding arguments.” Colossians 2:4. How amazing God always holds on to his words! I hope that more new coming students can experience the love of God and wont be deceived by false teaching. Besides, I can grow more in both knowledge and discerning the speaking from God.

Lemon 2018/9/3