In my alarm I said, “I am cut off from your sight!” Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help. (Psalm 31:22)
This month I sometimes felt I am far away from God. I started to receive rejection letters from graduate schools I applied. It seemed the results are conflicting with God’s promises when he told me to apply for graduate school. Maybe He eats His words I guess, but these ideas were not proved by bible, which is God’s promises and covenants for all times. When I realized my false thoughts, I reluctantly admitted my wrong thinking and confessed my query to God. At the end of March, I received an offer from University of Pittsburgh, which was my second dream school option. I was so happy, but I was not satisfied. I started to worry: “What if I get other schools’ offers, then which one should I choose? That would be so confuse for me that I don’t know which to choose in order to join God’s work, because I’m not a good decision maker.” Then I started to pray for God revealing his plan for me for the next step. Yesterday at midnight, I received all the decision from the school I applied. And God showed me very clear that only 1 school admitted me. Okay, God made decision for me so I don’t need to worry about it anymore. I just need to take sometimes to change my heart and obey his plan , and finally accept His offer for me.
Last week was the final week at OSU for students studying there. A graduate school girl who is in my small bible study group called me for suggestions for her late assignments. The assignment weighted 17% for the total course credit. She tried to get partial credit while the professor saying he/she did not look at late submitted papers. I found it is hard for for us to do anything in this situation. So I prayed for her, asking God gave her mercy on the course. After couple days she told me the whole class does not count for her graduate school credit hours. We did not know why but it counted for her undergraduate credits. This was definitely outside our predictions and she also experienced and praised the lord that He works on and helped her.
These days I had a strong feeling that I have to share the good news to my families, especially for my grandparents. I’m still praying for God’s courage and the way to share with them, since I know I am a timid person who does not want to share my ideas in my family. So my prayer requests are:
*Find a way to share with my family
*Too much to do for now, I feel so overwhelming for my next step. Please pray for God’s leading for my life.
Thanks so much for reading my blog and your prayer,
Lemon 2019/5/7