It is my second month interning with IFI but I feel like I involves a lot in this big family.

This month we start to read the second book of MasterLife about the disciple’s personality. The most useful and powerful class I learn from it is how to master my emotions. Before I read the chapter, I was always following what I thought and did what made me feel good first, because I thought emotions would be the cause of behavior. The book agree with that “Emotions are spontaneous responses to people’s values and believes”, but spiritual Christian would learn to master their emotions by controlling their responses first. However, I feel that even the first step of the ACTION solution hard for me to start. Sometimes the emotion comes strong and fast, always before I could realize that these were because unsure, fear or untrusty to God. Or I can acknowledge the superficial reason of my emotion but not the real one which may cause me using a different solution with the following steps. “You have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge sin the image of its creator” (Col. 3:9-10). Every time I read this verse I would be surprise at how much grace that God gives me when every time I failed to master my emotions. He is always ready to help me, but he need my corporation to join his work. It is ok to have negative feelings, and the Heavenly father is helping me overcome it.

Besides, God answered me the prayer at the end of this month to have one on one discipleship with students I met. In the beginning of Sept. I felt that I really don’t have student to follow up, since they are all busy and not able to meet. However, God knows what I need and gives me some relationship with the new students. I met a girl for lunch two weeks ago and talk about life situation, getting to know her more since it was the second time that I met her personally after the welcome events. And she seems open heart and really appreciate to what IFI did. She felt a lot love and care from us, but has not show interest in learning more about bible, since she already has a lot of readings every week. But it is God who is always at work. He will open a way for her to know him if I keep praying for her.
Thanks God that I finally get a job in my major and was able to support myself living in Columbus. Though Still being overwhelming by some works but hopefully I can manage most of them in October.
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Lemon 2018/9/31