“ Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. For everything in the world – the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life – comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.”
-1 John 2:15-17
Thank God made me so busy with Iseeders and students so that I won’t waste time on playing video games and watching movies. God told us whoever loves the world hasn’t had the love for Father. When I feel tired or bored, the first thing is looking for fun from electronic devices. My actions reflected that I didn’t love the Father so much. There are two possible reasons I had noticed for my disobeyed actions.
Firstly, my old-self is still affecting my behavior. My parent never teaches me what to do when I get bored. They just told me to do something meaningful but what the meaningful thing is. For them, the meaningful part might be earning money and enjoy their leisure time. For me, I didn’t have any sense of doing something meaningful because I couldn’t even find out what is meaningful to me when I was young. Therefore, I tried to watch movies and playing games in order to have fun.
Secondly, I don’t really understand what love is between father and son. My father spent tons of time working. He gave the responsibility of education to my mother. Thus, he seldom educated us and never taught us to have independent thinking. My father only came back during weekends from China. Although we saw each other, we seldom greeting to each other or have a conversation.
I appreciate where God has placed me. He placed me in the place that I could learn about the love of father and son and love of brotherhood. When I was in Florida, we spent time on fellowship and bible studies. Thank you God mercies me and gives me the opportunity to learn. However, my sinful nature is still influencing my thought.
I was depended on the things that can satisfy my bored and empty heart. Since I am a Christian, I should depend on God with every situation. I prayed that God fills my emptiness and replaces my bored feeling with his gracious power. And, I wouldn’t love the world and the lust of my flesh anymore. I will love the Father and obey to him forever.