Mark 10:27.
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”
You might be wondering why my title is so harsh? Well, I need to tell you a little bit about my story that’s been going on in my life for the last 6 to 7 months. I graduated with my Master’s in divinity from Liberty University in Lynchburg, VA. Being an International student, we get to use our one year OPT to work anywhere in the United States based on our major. Since my major is in Theology, I can work in any churches or organizations in the United States. My OPT started in July 2018 and goes through July 2019. So, I started to apply for jobs in the churches and organizations based on my experience and qualifications. I applied for over a thousand jobs in the past six months. Believe me, I got rejected in every place that I applied for. In this process, there are countless sleepless nights and I used to eat only once a day because I couldn’t afford to buy food because I was unemployed. But I never gave up on God because I know the struggles that I was going through is nowhere in reach to the sacrifice that He had done for me. I have been praying to God for the last 6 to 7 months to put me in a place where He can use me for His glory. There are countless nights that I have gone to bed with an empty stomach, fasting, and crying before God to use me. I surrendered Him all my life because I can’t do anything on my own. Only He can change my life. I didn’t ask Him to give me a job or give me food to eat, all I asked Him was to use me for His purpose. There are even weeks that I fasted not eating even one meal a day wrestling with God just the way Jacob wrestled.
My vision and aim in this world are not only run my race alone but to make people join me in the race and to finish the race for Christ and His kingdom. I have so much burden for the people and the lost souls. I have so much passion to go all over the world and share the gospel to people. Everyone is equal before God. And It is our responsibility to reach out to the people Because the bible says, in Philippians 2:10-11, “every knee shall bow, and every tongue should confess that He is the Lord.” God gave me the opportunity to know Him and to accept His goodness and mercies in my life and moreover accept Him as my personal savior. I can’t just keep this good thing to myself. I should be representing Christ to share the same good news to the people who don’t believe in Him. I have never asked God to bless me. I always asked God to make me a blessing to others for His sake.
Then the Holy Spirit took me through teaching where it said that I want you to know that everything you are going through is a lesson. It’s all building you into a better person, a better you. The things you’ve asked of me, the things you’ve told me you wanted – those are things you must be prepared for and you still need a bit of tweaking. The future, though bright, isn’t all sunshine and roses. The path has twists and turns, cracks are in it, fallen logs in your way, and most of the time you’re not going to be able to see straight ahead of you. The weather is going to be unpredictable. The hailstorm is going to knock you off your feet and the twisters are going to send you spinning into confusion, exhaustion, and doubt, but with the strength that I am trying to build up in you, you’ll find that you know exactly where to find shelter when the storms break down your door.
He knows what’s best for me. So, He made me wait for the last 6 months, tested my faith, trained me, and taught me some important lessons. And now He opened a door through IFI for me to share this good news to the students in Ohio State University here in Columbus, Ohio. I have started my work with IFI on January 14th, 2019, and in the span of 15 days, I got to meet and share the good news to around 50 to 60 students. For some reason, God had led me to start this proclamation. And I texted Anthony, saying that let’s go to campus and start winning souls for Christ. And Anthony responded so well that, he had stated that he was also looking for someone who would come forward to do this. And since then we both started to do this proclamation and later Theresa joined our group. This proclamation is not going to end. We have been rejected yet times by students, but we will not stop fighting.
Though my job description says that, I need to do outreach ministry to only Indian students, but I’m not here for only Indians because I’m the messenger of God. I have been chosen by God and I should represent Him. I have got my eyes on every individual. I don’t want to draw a boundary around myself and say that I’m going to work with only Indian students, No! I’m open to God. Let Him use me for His glory. Though my time is going to be very short here in IFI, I will give my best to reach out to students as much as I can and glorify my God that’s in Heaven. If God is willing for me to continue my work with the IFI and work with OSU students, I’m willing to do anything for God. I will not even dare to give up on God because God has not given up on me.
When God is not willing to give up on me, I don’t need to be afraid. I can tell all my fears and my desires to Him. Because I can ask Him for and about anything. He’s always going to give me an answer, whether it’s a yes, no, or not right now. Be it anything in life, I will stop worrying and fight on through the darkness.
Because I’m stronger than what I think and so are you! Yes, you, the one who is reading this. Don’t you dare give up on God because He’s not finished with you yet!
Help me or come join me in proclaiming the gospel to the nations!