There were so many things happened in January 2018. The most important one is that I got baptized on January 21st. I am so excited about how God changed my life!
This was my second time to get baptized. I was first baptized in China back on July 11th, 2012, but I didn’t know the meaning of baptism. I even didn’t know much about Christianity. I just wanted to have a belief at that time. Since my grandma was a Christian, so I decided to become a Christian just like her. After I got baptized, I went to my Chinese university. In my university, I found a small Christian group. I grew up more and knew more about God. Then, I got the chance to transfer to the University of Kansas. I am so thankful that God brought to Lawrence, KS. I went to Rev City Church there and went through Alpha course and Life training school, so I grew up a lot.
However, I always know there was an issue in my heart that I am afraid to do things to face challenges. I don’t know why I always feel fear even others ask me to do a very easy thing and I know I can do it, but I will still say “sorry, I can’t do it.” After I came to Columbus for this ISEED program, I need to face more challenges like building relationships with many new students and leading Bible study. I want to do these good things, but I just can’t do it because of the fear. I remember one night, my roommate Florence came to my room, we started sharing things in our life. I shared with her that I want to experience God more. She prayed with me and she said she sensed there was a chain around my arms. Jesus was standing behind me, but I can’t turn around to see him because I was around by the chains. But neither of us knew what the chain was. We just prayed that God broke the chains. After that night, I pray that God breaks the chains and set me free every day, but I still didn’t know what that is.
A few weeks ago, Rich was sitting behind me at ANCF. After Sunday service, he said to me that he felt God wants him to pray for me to be bold. He asked me if I wanted to receive the prayer. I was shocked at first and I said yes! That’s the thing I always want to get. Thus, Rich, Florence, Connie and many other friends prayed with me. During the prayer, Rich prayed that God broke the chains in my life. When I heard the prayer, I started crying and couldn’t stop myself. Florence never shared the prayer between us to Rich, so how can Rich knew about the chains. After the prayer, I felt better but I didn’t feel I was totally changed.
Two weeks ago, Abby brought Florence and me to a conference in Michigan. The pastor was good at praying for others. We drove 4 hours to there. I wrote down my prayer requests. The first one was that I hope God can break the chains in my life so that I can be bold and free. There were a lot of people waiting for prayers, so the pastor only prayed 1 minute for me. She said she sensed something happened when my mother was pregnant, so I was influenced by that. There was a spirit of fear in my heart. She prayed for me over that. I didn’t feel anything changed at first. However, I found something is different when we drove back to Columbus. On the way back, Abby asked me to do some inner healing with my mom. I answered her “yes, I will try that.” After I answered her, I felt shocked because I didn’t say no. I said I will try it which was totally different with me before. I kept thinking other things and I found I didn’t feel the fear anymore! I was set free by God! I decided to get baptized again because God just changed my life! I want to share this good news with all the people in my life that Jesus won this spiritual warfare for me! Moreover, I know the true meaning of baptism now, so I want to be baptized again and testify for God.
I am so grateful that God provides the place for me to get baptized. I had a wonderful memory at Christian Community Church. I am so happy that many of my friends came and celebrate my new life!
Now, I am no longer a slave to fear. I am a child of God.
Faith over fear!
