I think we all have this crying in our hearts sometimes as David did in his psalms: “Where are you Lord, I can’t feel your presence and I am lost”. This is a real struggle for me sometimes, things got so hard to bear in my life that I got overwhelmed by my emotions. Because my heart is not quite before the Lord, I can’t hear his gentle speaking to me. I struggled a lot to be consistent and to persevere. I am this type of person who is super flexible and whose idea and decision changes all the time. It can be a blessing at times yet make my life really complicated at other times. I struggled to make my yes be a yes and a no be a no and persist in enduring the consequence of my decision and be patient in waiting for the Lord’s delivering. However, the Lord is still very gracious to me and he provided people in my life who can encourage me and help me when I most needed. I am especially grateful for my mentor Karen Oliver and Mary Chao. Two wise and spiritual sisters in Christ who had many experiences with the Lord. I am also blessed by a young sister whom I introduced to Christ, she was able to pray with me and comfort me when I was too weak.